Tuesday, April 6, 2010

a letter to my baby

My precious Baby Soup,

I am so sorry that you will never be able to lead the life we all expected you to live. I don't have any of the answers to all the questions swirling around in my head. But I do know that even though you were so small we had a great connection and a great love. Most of the time our love connection was through morning sickness and cravings for fried food and ice cream, but also through all the time I spent wondering. I wondered what your sweet little face would look like, whether I would buy your first outfits on the boy or girl side of gymboree, and how captivated your brother and sister would be by you. But even though all of these wonderings will stay just that, thoughts in my head, you changed our lives. You taught us to love each other a little more each day, hug a little tighter, and to cherish each moment we have with each other. Though you may not fulfill the life that you deserved, know that you were always loved, always wanted, and will always be missed.

your mommy


  1. Beautiful letter. I am so sorry to learn of your loss. Your family is in my prayers.

  2. This is precious. Thank you for sharing it with us. Our losses brought the same experience ... it drew us closer together as a couple. It makes it a little easier to get through....

  3. what a sweet mom you are!!!! praying for you guys!

  4. Thank you for sharing this sweet letter! We're sending lots of prayers your way, let us know if there is anything else we can do!

  5. I am so so sorry for your loss.

  6. DeeDee, I'm so sorry. Praying God holds you close.